Well, its 2019 and I started the year out strong---with depression.
I have realized its so bad, that my boss at work told me to start a gratitude journal.
I reflect on what I'm grateful for constantly, and my bad mood does not reflect it.
It might be time for a change at work, it definitely is time for a change no matter what.
There is a new agent at my office who rubs me the wrong way. He's an idiot, but everyone seems to like him. He uses the community work station and leaves all his stuff there, like its his personal space. I've asked him to stop--and he doesn't. What really irks me the most is he is one of those people who uses "reply all" to company emails, even when its a personal or not important reply. I've also emailed him and personally asked him to stop doing that, and he just laughs. Its so bad it spams up my inbox. The office personnel seem to think I'm being ridiculous. I've also been told he has gotten 3 listings in the past 45 days, and I only had 1, so he ranks higher than me.
I'm going to prove them wrong.
They may be right about my depression--that is hard to control. I spend a ton of time at home taking care of Frank. I really can't spend time in the office until after BD comes home. I just can't. Frank needs pills every 6-8 hours and pees every 2. I am not interested in comments that I am ignoring his quality of life. He has a quality of life because of the care I am giving him, and I am grateful to be able to care for him and work from home as much as possible.
In order to circumvent the idiot that has won over the office, I bought a small travel laptop. I am going to have our IT guy set it up for me to print at both offices and get online--so no matter which office I'm at, I can print from a desk that isn't the community station---as it is bunked up by so called idiot's stuff. I've also spammed him in my email. The downside is I won't get emails from him, so if he ever sends me an offer, I won't get it--until he calls me to ask about the offer. That's a chance I'm willing to take. I don't think he will be around much longer anyways.
I did start the gratitude journal. I'm so mad at my manager for calling me out for being negative, but I do know I am negative. It all has to change.
